Just today I faced my fear of exploring our new surroundings. I kept holding off going to the store by myself long enough.
My motive was knowing we needed a few things and that’s exactly how I faced my fear. Sounds silly, but change scares me. It wasn’t the thought of leaving the house, it was the thought of creating a new home somewhere else, a state other than Jersey without my family that made me want to curl into a ball. I don’t always admit when I’m nervous or scared but knowing that my family has become my fiancé, Sebastian and Rocky is a bit scary. Yes, we have Jeff’s brother and his family – and plenty more – but it’s not the same.
I was telling Jeff earlier how much I miss our old house. It wasn’t because of the layout – believe me, cleaning this one-floor home is easier than three floors. It’s what it represented and my dreams of sharing our lives in Jersey with family and friends. But like Jeff said after I told him I had a dream last night that we were in Jersey, “it was more like a nightmare.” 🙂
The snow looks amazing from the photos, just wouldn’t be too thrilled to have to drive in it. I’ll tell you one thing, drinking hot chocolate in Florida isn’t the same. There’s something about cold weather and hot chocolate that makes me happy. But there’s always family we can visit this time next year! 😉
Hope everyone had a wonderful Tuesday.
‘Til next time, loves….
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